Supervision: Daniel Burkhardt Prof. Dr. Lilian Haberer Prof. Matthias Müller Prof. Kathrin Röggla
Project type: Diplom
A production of the Academy of Media Arts Cologne.
External cooperation: Roger Willemsen Stiftung Kulturbehörde Hamburg Liebelt Stiftung Hamburg Goldbekhof e.V. Center for Literature Burg Hülshoff Claussen-Simon-Stiftung
Year: 2024 Length: 00:23:35 Categories: Film / TV / Video, experimental film, documentary
Project type: Diplom
“I’d Rather Have Made Another Film” is an experimental essayistic documentary film, in which the director tackles the painful memories of the sexualised violence she was subjected to in her childhood, the consequences of which she still struggles with. ""At the beginning of November 2018 I decided to make an autobiographical film. I thought I could make it easy for myself. I would read out the clinic’s psychiatric report: The patient reported that she had been sexually abused by her father from the age of 11 to 15 years old. They say, it’s treatable. Maybe I would be just as sad if none of this had happened?"" In a voice-over, Suse Itzel talks about the sexual violence that she endured as a child and teenager and the consequences this kind of violence can have. An experimental sequence of images accompanies the spoken word. Photographs from the past: pictures of a living room that no longer exists. The family only appearing in photos as gaps. A green couch on old photos and replicated in sculpture form. Pictures as projections in space: painful memories, which reemerge in the present. In psychiatry rooms, atelier rooms or the rooms of a flat share. Attempts at therapy.
Daniel Burkhardt, Prof. Dr. Lilian Haberer, Prof. Matthias Müller, Prof. Kathrin Röggla
Authors:
Suse Itzel
A production of the Academy of Media Arts Cologne.
External cooperation:
Roger Willemsen Stiftung, Kulturbehörde Hamburg, Liebelt Stiftung Hamburg, Goldbekhof e.V., Center for Literature Burg Hülshoff, Claussen-Simon-Stiftung
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